One week into the New Year, I'm feeling pretty great. I made my first dentist appointment, bought a bed, washed my face and moisturized probably more times than I did in all of 2011, and most importantly for the new year, I've really been accountable for the losing weight portion of my goal.
I've said it more than once this week, but this time, the process just feels different. I feel almost like there is a difference in where my heart is. Yeah, I know that might sound funny, but it's true. It's not about beating myself up over where I am, but more about focusing on where I'm going. I also feel more determined than I have before. I realize that we are only one week into the year, but I am still more determined after one week than I have been ever before.
I told my sister earlier this week, that each time before, I've always looked forward to a "cheat" day, but I don't feel that way now. I feel like this is a new life for me - a new lifestyle.
I'm excited to see what this year is going to bring. This is a beautiful healthier life.
Sunday, January 8, 2012
Saturday, January 7, 2012
One Resolution Down...
I bought a bed today. A nice, comfy king sized bed. I wish finding bedding for it was as easy. I bought one from Kohl's only to return it after I got home, made the bed, and realized how much I just didn't like it. After several stores, I ended up just getting nice sheets and a plain comforter. I guess I'll keep my eyes open and hope I spot something soon. Until then...
I'm hoping I can count some sheep and get several hours worth of sleep tonight. =)
I'm hoping I can count some sheep and get several hours worth of sleep tonight. =)
Friday, January 6, 2012
Yeah, So...
It's Friday - I cooked - Shake and Bake w/ Ranch seasoning for JD and baked chicken with Mrs. Dash for me with steamed broccoli. I even put chicken in the crock pot for tomorrow.
Yeah, it's Friday, my most likely day to eat out and I cooked. I'm walking away with the win today.
It's a beautiful - healthier - life!
Yeah, it's Friday, my most likely day to eat out and I cooked. I'm walking away with the win today.
It's a beautiful - healthier - life!
Thursday, January 5, 2012
Best Dessert Ever?
Okay, so it is not a secret that sweets are not my downfall. Lasagna? Yes. Cheeseburgers? Yes. Sweets...not so much. However, what I find interesting is that when I start to get serious about watching what I'm eating - especially my refined carbs - it's like I suddenly develop a sweet tooth. Some might call it weird...I just plain out call it the devil. ha!
Well, that last few nights, I've found the perfect thing to put that to rest: one half cup of cottage cheese. Seriously. I measure it out and eat it out of the measuring cup so that I don't cheat. Yes, seriously. Now, I realize that some of you might not like cottage cheese and well, I'm sorry for that, because it is doing the trick for me.
Today - on this 5th day of the year - I am still feeling encouraged. I really do think that your mindset goes a long way towards reaching your goals. I'm going to savor the moments of strength in preparation for days that may be harder in the future. Yeah, I know I'm only five days in, but I haven't seriously considered "cheating" at all in those 5 days, and that says a lot. I think I've realized this time that the only person being cheated is me when I continue to make poor choices.
This is a healthier beautiful life.
Well, that last few nights, I've found the perfect thing to put that to rest: one half cup of cottage cheese. Seriously. I measure it out and eat it out of the measuring cup so that I don't cheat. Yes, seriously. Now, I realize that some of you might not like cottage cheese and well, I'm sorry for that, because it is doing the trick for me.
Today - on this 5th day of the year - I am still feeling encouraged. I really do think that your mindset goes a long way towards reaching your goals. I'm going to savor the moments of strength in preparation for days that may be harder in the future. Yeah, I know I'm only five days in, but I haven't seriously considered "cheating" at all in those 5 days, and that says a lot. I think I've realized this time that the only person being cheated is me when I continue to make poor choices.
This is a healthier beautiful life.
Wednesday, January 4, 2012
Weigh-In Wednesday...
Today was my first official Wednesday Weigh-In of 2012. I weigh and write it down everyday. Yes, I know they say that you should only weigh once a week, but it helps keep me in check to weigh. I don't get discouraged or encouraged, just like to see where I am. However, Wednesday is my official day - the one that counts. So, this morning, I bravely stepped up on the scale. It was what I thought it would be. I'm looking forward to each week - and what the results will be from here on out. =)
Another step I took today was to do something pretty radical for me. I talked to four friends and decided to tell them exactly what I weigh, and I will report to them each Wednesday what my new weight is. I will also email one of them what I've eaten during the day for extra accountability. You see, when JD is with his dad, and it is just me, it is easy to just pick something up on the way home or sit around and eat something convenient. I mean, after all, it's just me - who is going to know, right? Well, not any more, because they are going to know. In my note to my friends I told them that this is the year I lose the weight, because I am worth more than the struggle to lose weight...more than this making resolutions and going back on them. I am just worth more.
Today has been a pretty good day, as far as hunger and motivation go. Yesterday was a little rough, so it is nice that today was better. I know that there will be easier days and then some pretty tough days, too, but this time I feel different about the decision to be healthier. I feel like I did when I made the commitment to run the half marathon - like my mind is made up - now, I will just continue to follow through.
This is a beautiful life!
Another step I took today was to do something pretty radical for me. I talked to four friends and decided to tell them exactly what I weigh, and I will report to them each Wednesday what my new weight is. I will also email one of them what I've eaten during the day for extra accountability. You see, when JD is with his dad, and it is just me, it is easy to just pick something up on the way home or sit around and eat something convenient. I mean, after all, it's just me - who is going to know, right? Well, not any more, because they are going to know. In my note to my friends I told them that this is the year I lose the weight, because I am worth more than the struggle to lose weight...more than this making resolutions and going back on them. I am just worth more.
Today has been a pretty good day, as far as hunger and motivation go. Yesterday was a little rough, so it is nice that today was better. I know that there will be easier days and then some pretty tough days, too, but this time I feel different about the decision to be healthier. I feel like I did when I made the commitment to run the half marathon - like my mind is made up - now, I will just continue to follow through.
This is a beautiful life!
Tuesday, January 3, 2012
Refocusing my Priorities...
Part of honoring my temple in 2012 is about me being able to refocus my priorities. It is about me focusing on doing some things for myself and my health in order to accomplish what I really desire to accomplish. Today, I had a situation where I was once again reminded what I do and what I don't want out of life...what I'm not willing to settle for.
So - this is me - reaffirming that God knows the true desires of my heart, and I believe that He has a plan, greater than I can imagine.
So - this is me - reaffirming that God knows the true desires of my heart, and I believe that He has a plan, greater than I can imagine.
Monday, January 2, 2012
The Hard Truth
The hard truth of the journey to honor my temple in 2012 is that the weight loss part is definitely going to be the hardest. There is something that wells up in me when I think about having to deny myself. There I said it. It is almost like a rebellious attitude that says "I can do what I want - I'm a grown woman". The fact that I feel super lame even typing that shows me how lame that idea is. Why would I want something that is detrimental to my success? Why would I want to continue the same way I have been? Why?
Today, I had to be honest with myself.
The hard truth is that I have done things in the past to sabotage my success in this area. I've exercised hard - only to go get Whataburger or pizza - only to feel that sense of failure after eating. Yet, I continued to find myself repeating that cycle. Watch what I eat....exercise....fall off the wagon.
When I was growing up, there were times that as punishment, we would have to run. Until doing the half marathon last year, I would have told you that I absolutely hated running - or exercise in general. Each time I went out to run, this feeling would hit me and I would absolutely HATE having to exercise. I would just want to quit.
Well - this is the year. This is the year that I will tell myself the hard truths. I will admit why I make the decisions to sabotage myself and I will stop allowing myself to undermine my success. Honestly, I imagine that I will be praying myself through this, too. I will pray for God to help me because I am not strong enough on my own. If I were, I would have already conquered this. I will start being honest with myself about what I'm eating and how much exercise I'm doing.
So - here it goes. I will decide each day to make the best decisions for my health. I will quit hiding from relationships by sabotaging my weight (yeah, I do that - and that stops today). This is for me. This is my year. I will stop choosing unhealthy choices above myself.
Today, I had to be honest with myself.
The hard truth is that I have done things in the past to sabotage my success in this area. I've exercised hard - only to go get Whataburger or pizza - only to feel that sense of failure after eating. Yet, I continued to find myself repeating that cycle. Watch what I eat....exercise....fall off the wagon.
When I was growing up, there were times that as punishment, we would have to run. Until doing the half marathon last year, I would have told you that I absolutely hated running - or exercise in general. Each time I went out to run, this feeling would hit me and I would absolutely HATE having to exercise. I would just want to quit.
Well - this is the year. This is the year that I will tell myself the hard truths. I will admit why I make the decisions to sabotage myself and I will stop allowing myself to undermine my success. Honestly, I imagine that I will be praying myself through this, too. I will pray for God to help me because I am not strong enough on my own. If I were, I would have already conquered this. I will start being honest with myself about what I'm eating and how much exercise I'm doing.
So - here it goes. I will decide each day to make the best decisions for my health. I will quit hiding from relationships by sabotaging my weight (yeah, I do that - and that stops today). This is for me. This is my year. I will stop choosing unhealthy choices above myself.
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