Okay, for those of you who have not yet been blessed with children, let me say this: Your child can be your biggest fan and your biggest critic all rolled into one. It's pretty amazing. =) As a mom, I find myself really striving to achieve all that my son believes me to be...to him I've been not only a mother, but a teacher, nurse, chef, cheerleader, housekeeper, bread winner, referee....you name it, I can do it in his eyes. At this stage in life, he only believes I'm lacking in one area - and he's pretty open about it. To him, it is a shame that I'm single.
Up until about a year ago, I really wasn't certain why he always seemed to bring up the fact that I'm single - it's not like I talk about it with him. And, he has a great relationship with his dad, so it's not like he's looking for a father. Well, a little less than a year ago, JD sat beside me on the couch one night and explained to me that he worries about me. I guess in his mind, when he's with his dad, I'm just sitting at the house waiting on him to come home and he was worried about me. It is actually really sweet. =) We talked about it, and although he brings it up every now and then, he pretty much laid off me about being single.
That being said:
Tonight, he calls to tell me goodnight and says "Mama, I had a vision today of you and you were old." Okay, I could hear the laughter in his voice, but I went along with him. "Oh really.....did I have a lot of wrinkles?" He says "Nah, you didn't look scary old, just old. You were sitting in a rocking chair, rocking, and knitting - surrounded by cats - one on each chair arm, and one in your lap." I started laughing "Child, I don't even know how to knit - and we only have two cats!" He says "Mama, I'm titling this "Your life without a man, vision". Oh yeah, he did. No really he went there. I said "Son, we've had this talk before, right? And we are doing great. I'm not stressed about being single, you should just relax." He says he's afraid I'm almost 31 and getting old....what happens if I want more kids? Seriously. I'm not certain where he gets this stuff from. I'm pretty certain I felt a wrinkle pop up when he said that.
I was laughing when I hung the phone up...remembering that this is the same child who told me that I should write down all my good qualities because he thinks I'm pretty, smart, super funny, and heck can cook, too - so he can't imagine a woman better than that. Ha! And yes, those were his words a little while back.....see what I mean? My biggest fan. That's okay, because I'm the founding member of the JD Franklin Fan Cub myself, so I guess that works both ways. =)
I love that kid. He really does keep me young.
